I Love Her

Totul e perfect la ea.. Parul, buzele, sanii, chiar si burtica ei e perfecta..

Si e a mea..

Nu o sa uit niciodata ce timid eram cand doar o vedeam prin multimea de la west side..

Din toi care erau acolo, ochii mei ii urmareau fiecare miscare, fiecare gest..

Parea mult prea superioara pentru mine.

Eu eram doar eu.. Simplu si banal..

Dar ea, plina de gratie, defila prin fata mea si eu ma simteam cucerit de o fata care nu mi-a spus nici macar "buna".. Dar era ceva magic.. Ceva supranatural... 

Si...

Dupa cateva saptamani

BOOOOOOOOOOOM

Am inceput sa vorbim..

La inceput nici nu stiam ce sa-i zic..

Si...

Dupa cinci zile, eram oficial impreuna...

Acum suntem impreuna de o luna si putin si o ADOR!

Avem o relatie asa super si asa perfecta..

 Mereu mi-am dorit asta...

Mereu mi-am dorit sa am o persoana langa mine care ma iubeste si care ma face sa uit de tot si toate si cu care pot vorbi deschis despre absolut orice..

Si ca bonus, ii cam plac chestiile Kinky..

Nu pot sa-mi iau gandul de la ea indiferent de ce fac..

Pentru ca e asa frumoasa si draguta si dulce si adorabila! 

E mereu in inima mea. Si asa vreau sa ramana!

 E Perfecta!

 

 

O IUBESC!

Siiiiii... in sfarsit am iesit din casa :P

Desi a fost o zi foarte calduroasa, am reusit sa ajung la destinatie

M-am intalnit acolo cu 2 fete.. si prima jumatate de ora nu prea m-am simtit in largul meu.. dar dupa mi-a trecut si am inceput sa povestesc...

A fost AWESOME 

Nu am mai stat de mult afara... Mai ales cu fetele :))

Neaparat trebuie sa mai fac asta cel putin odata :P

Chiar daca, cum spuneam, nu ma simteam in largu meu, dupa vreo 2 ore parca ne cunosteam de mult.. Cel putin mie mi-a placut..

Acum mi-e cam tarsa de ce cred fetele despre mine.. Asta probabil o sa ramana un mister.. Eu sper ca nu am facut o impresie proasta :-?

Cand sa plecam, am dus-o pe una dintre fete acasa... 

Si eram gen "Fuck.. De ce trebuie sa plece?? X_x"

Si dupa am luat-o inapoi spre locul unde am stat..

Si pe drum am vorbit cu cealalta fata despre fosti si foste :))

Dupa ce am plecat ma suna cel mai bun prieten si ma intreaba "Cum a fost? :>" si eu i-am raspuns "Super tare :>"

Si continua "Si cum e tipa?"

Si eu "Care tipa?"

Si imi zice "Doar nu Larisa (greu de explicat cine e Larisa.. asa ca va las un pic in ceata:)) )

Si i-am spus "E draguta.. nu stiu ce sa zic.. e super :).. nu m-am dus ca la o intalnire cu ea asa ca sa nu intram in detalii"

Si s-a lamurit ca nu o sa-i zic prea multe.. Asa ca s-a lasat pagubas :P

Si cam asta a fost ziua de azi.. 

This was one of my lucky days :))

BANG

ofofof.. "ce viata grea..." asa spun toti..

si cand ii vezi ca se plang pentru motive de 2 lei iti vine sa-ti smulgi paru din cap...

desi nu prea o sa aiba legatura introducerea cu restu, asta e in mintea mea.. :)

DECI,

vreau sa spun ca in sfarsit am gasit o persoana cu care ma inteleg, si care ma suporta ((deocamdata))

e greu sa-ti faci prieteni cand arati si esti tembel ca mine.. dar asta e.. m-am obisnuit..

life goes on.. fie ca vreau sau nu..

ca sa fie o amestecatura totala, o sa vorbesc si despre RELATIONSHIPS. 

da.. o duc prost :)). ma oftic cand ii vad pe cei din jur cat de happy sunt..

adica.... de ce eu? de ce nu pot sa fiu ca ceilalti? fericit, blablabla..??

dar asta e viata.. o sa ma obisnuiesc...

OFFFFF, pe cine pacalesc? imi e foarte greu si nu stiu daca o sa scap de singuratatea asta muribunda.. 

nu cred ca ma pot obisnui cu asta.. 

in fine..

sper ca altii sa o duca bine in toate punctele de vedere si sa fie fericiti.. macar ei..

si.. pentru aia care nu ma suporta.. : "muriti ma, sa scapati de mine" :)

BEST WISHES

Pentru toti si toate care mi-ati intors spatele atunci cand aveam mai mare nevoie de voi.

Blowing my mind with some real shit!

For You :*

 - So i'm thinking we should maybe just run away from here with no plan of coming back

We can stay away forever, our anguished love will be all we have

And i will save your life

I won't watch you die

- You don't realize what you're saying, wtihout me you can't survive

- She haunts me in dreams

I see her silhouette dance across landscapes

- Blood soaked feathers rained down

My wingless angel so broken falls gracefully from the sky

- A shadow is revealed, the devil shows his face

- As the last rays of sunlight fade,

One killer chases another through the tangled madness of the city

A flash of steel announces the presence of his quarry

The stage is set, the night explodes

- You killed her, you murderer

You have no clue what she's capable of

You have striped me of the one that I love

You'd better look behind you.

- The smell of blood still crawls, I kiss you softly goodbye

- Baby lay in my arms and cuddle me close

- Will I ever be able to sleep again?

-My angel lie to me and tell me I'm dreaming

Please wake me up!

- Oh ecstasy, you torture me

- I watch the blood drip from the corners of your mouth

Your icy flesh is lying, your pallid skin still glows

You're still so beautiful and yet so morbidly still

- My stomach heaves as I see the blood that covers me

Blood that was once hers

I'm a Criminal

- If you are who i think you are

I might lose my mind

- I may be blind but i can see

Your kiss will ruin me.

(those who know me will understand)     

   

   

 :D

Ma cheama clopotele-n frig

Zvon dirijat de maini ceresti

Greu pana la sange ma ating... Ma sting

Cu albi fulgi de-otrava ma zidesti

Fac mana ramura sa-mi canti

Vreau anii mei sa-i amurgesti

Cu ochi cuminti verzi si fierbinti

Carbune, iarna mi-o topesti

Tu cu Eva sora esti,

Trupu-mi rascolesti

Cer si infernul logodesti

Esti, esti....

Vreau sa stiu ce te apasa

Spune-mi tot ori nu-ti mai pasa

Ce-a mai ramas, ma-ntreb in scuze,

Ce gand iti tremura pe buze?

Scaparea-i noaptea, nepasare,

Am scris o alba inchisoare...

Am dat de frig nebun sub piele,

Am dat de fum ascuns sub gene... 

Oare nu-ti mai pasa???

Our next cover!

        Of... Am terminat de citit ce am scris in postarile anterioare... Si... Am vazut lucruri si oameni de care am depins... Foarte ciudat... E adevarat ca am fost dezamagit si lovit de foarte multe ori.. Inca incerc sa ma ridic.. Am ajuns la stadiul in care stau in genunchi... Deci mai am ceva pana ajung in picioare..

Anyway.. In momentu asta sunt binisor... Nu bine... Doar binisor.. sper ca o sa ajung sa fac si bine in curand... 

Desi m-am lasat de unele prostii pe care le faceam, am inceput cu altele... Eh.. probabil o sa ma las si de astea :-?..

Am cam fost absent la ce se intampla pe bloguri in ultimele luni, din cauza unor intamplari care prefer sa ramana doar pentru mine... Si.. Cat timp am fost absent.. Am realizat cat de repede se schimba oamenii... Cand te scuipa, cand te pupa.. si dupa tot asa... E bine ca eu cel putin nu m-am schimbat.. asa ca m-au urat pentru ce eram si m-au iubit pentru acelasi lucru..

In Fine...

Vreau sa incep de la inceput.. Sa nu iau din trecut decat clipele frumoase si trairile fantastice.. care acum mi se par doar povesti...

BTW.... : Death isn't freedom!

Rainy Mood

Rainy Mood

What is wrong with her eyes?
A glossy stare that won't leave me be starts my blood running cold.
A gaze that could make hell freeze over...
I have to understand she's gone...
But she's not!
Don't you tell me that she is dead!
Watch her lips softly move because she's still whispering to me!
...And something here is not quite right...

Skin so cold beneath my touch as I brush back her hair and close her eyes.
But I cannot stand to turn away.
When I do, she'll be gone...
It's frightening...

Sweaty hands will fail to lock the door...
They'll be here soon.
I wish I could keep my teeth from grinding.
I wish I'd stop looking behind me.
Running now will only make it worse...
They'll be here soon.
I wish I could shake the awful feeling.
I wish my mind would stop...

Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me.
As the ground vanishes I wonder will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas.
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch.
As I watch everything unravel, why should I even try to stop the collapse?
I won't...

Shaking as I rest her body down.
No one knows, only me...
It's frightening...

Sweaty hands will fail to lock the door...
They'll be here soon.
I wish I could keep my teeth from grinding.
I wish I'd stop looking behind me.
Running now will only make it worse...
They'll be here soon.
I wish I could shake the awful feeling.
I wish my mind would stop...

Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me.
As the ground vanishes I wonder will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas.
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch.
As I watch everything unravel, why should I even try to stop the collapse?
Why should I even try to stop the collapse? Why should I even try?

There's a madman glaring straight at me!
Oh I know I've seen his face before...
I am sure I've seen his face before...

Maybe I am crazy and my mind is trying to deceive me.
As the ground vanishes I wonder will the sky be the next to fail me?
Paint abandons canvas.
And my brush can't seem to start again from scratch.
As I watch everything unravel, why should I even try to stop the collapse?
I won't...